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beware of falling emo
Jun. 5th, 2008 01:07 pmPlease excuse this post, but I have to make it.
I just sent Ash off.
I'm so miserable about this that I can barely find the words to begin to describe how I feel. I'm entirely torn up. I know she is going to try to return in a few months, but the uncertainty of that plus the added realization that, once again, there's going to be at least a few more months without her nearby is utterly heartwrenching to me, and I don't care how pathetic I sound or if anybody is offended by it.
Ash is my best friend. She's my best friend in the entire world. I love her and being with her so much. The days I had with her here, while few in number, were, honestly, the best of my life. As pathetic and dumb as it sounds, I can't feel 100% like myself without her nearby.
Maybe once this melodramatic feeling passes and I can calm down, things will feel better, but right now I just feel so... heartbroken, I guess. What Ash and I have is anything but romantic, but, at the same time, I feel like I'm now missing my better half.
I miss you so much already, Ash. I hope you have/had a great flight. Get some sleep, rest up, and then get back here, baby. America doesn't need you, but I do. ._.
I just sent Ash off.
I'm so miserable about this that I can barely find the words to begin to describe how I feel. I'm entirely torn up. I know she is going to try to return in a few months, but the uncertainty of that plus the added realization that, once again, there's going to be at least a few more months without her nearby is utterly heartwrenching to me, and I don't care how pathetic I sound or if anybody is offended by it.
Ash is my best friend. She's my best friend in the entire world. I love her and being with her so much. The days I had with her here, while few in number, were, honestly, the best of my life. As pathetic and dumb as it sounds, I can't feel 100% like myself without her nearby.
Maybe once this melodramatic feeling passes and I can calm down, things will feel better, but right now I just feel so... heartbroken, I guess. What Ash and I have is anything but romantic, but, at the same time, I feel like I'm now missing my better half.
I miss you so much already, Ash. I hope you have/had a great flight. Get some sleep, rest up, and then get back here, baby. America doesn't need you, but I do. ._.
